Tinnitus and my story

Around this time 2 years ago, I remember waking up with a weird sound in my ears. Not quite a buzzing, nor a ringing sound, but more like the sound that comes when you turn on a really old television. You know that sound, right? the eeeeeeeee- sound? I figured I just had an ear infection, so I played the waiting game. Apparently I won, because I'm still to this day waiting for it to get the fuck out of my head. After about 2 months of constantly ringing in my ears, I went to my doctor. He sent me to a specialist (Didn't pay a penny btw, Denmark fuck yeah!) and they ran a few tests on me. Luckely no tumors or anything was found, but sadly that also meant they couldn't do anything. So since then I've been going through some different "treatments" and nothing have worked, meaning it did help me not focus on the sound, but it's still there. Yep, all the time.

I don't blame the doctors though, there just isn't really any cure yet. There is a fuckton of ways to help you not focus on it (meditation, sound devices and stuff like that) but the thing is, There is still sound involved.

And that's the thing that gets me the most, that I can't just enjoy silence, but I need constant sound in my ears to overcome the tinnitus. 

I can't describe how much I hate having to listen to music, podcasts or just any sound when I'm trying to sleep. I NEED SILENCE TO SLEEP! But nope, Scumbag ear.

Sleeping with tinnitus is the worst thing. Right now, theese past two weeks have been horrible. It takes me 1-3 houers to fall asleep, because I have a hard time sleeping from noise. Imagine sleeping in the same room as a party, sober. that's how I feel, every.. damn.. night..

But I'm not here to complain, but to bring awareness. Tinnitus is horrible, and a real thing. You can't see it, but it's there.

Now, I've been looking online for "treatments" or "medicine" that would help me, and to my surprise I found this video:

I was so happy, I finnaly found something that looked like it was going to help. But this was when I checked their website (Not even gonna link you) 

In the video they are talking about how horrible it is to have this, and how there is no other treatments that works. And yet they still have the audacity to sell this for $300 for a 6month subsciption

Scumbags. Really.

but in the end, I will probably be trying this, since I'm more desperate for a cure for this shit then a 17year old virgin boy is to get poontang. If I decide to try it out, I will do an update. Also, if any of you have tried this, please let me know how it went.¨

Also, if you could please do me, and many others a favour, please donate a few bucks to the tinnitus research. It might be your money that could save thousands of peoples sanity.

Donate

-Rauwz <3

Wallpapers 11

Yeah buddy! I'm back, and I'll stay this time :).
Sorry for the inactivity, but I just finished school, and I'm ready to update this blog, if not daily, atleast 4 times a week. I've got a lot of spare time now, so yeah.. Let's get this started !

Current wallpaper, pretty cute. Goes really well with my rainmeter setup.

I thought this one was quite amazing too. Would love to hike there..

This one is made my one of the lovely people on reddit.com/r/trees

it's an edited version of this:

a bit of a weird resolution, but it doesn't really matter. Fits my widescreen fine.

aww, I love this one.

I hope there is something you like, if not then please comment saying what you'd like to see next time. 

Just chilling

Sup?

I haven't been doing much these last few days, just chilling. Pretty cool actually, just sitting here in my sweatpants, watching Jersey shore, playing trackmania 2. Yeah, life's good.
So, because of the lack of, well, entertaining stuff to read, I'll leave you with some pictures!

I fucking need this, I swear. just.. just take my money!

Just thought this was kind of cool.

Just a little food for thought..

Fight club anyone?

I'll leave you with this..

BB <3

-Rauwz <3

Wallpapers 10!

we did it!
Cheers, to ten more!<3

So let's kick this off, I'm in a good mood, got some dubstep playin, and just got out of a long hot bath, so I'm fucking ready.. YEAH. Let's do this.

For epic orgasmic time, listen to this while you read!

Currently using the last one.
I'll see you guys on saturday!<3

-Rauwz <3

Trackmania 2 Canyon

After about 3 months of playing trackmania nations forever and enjoying myself, i finnaly decided to get canyon. And let me tell you, best purchase evarr!
Aight, maby not, but pretty damn close. I'm almost 3 houers into the game, and so far it's amazing. A big concern of mine was if my computer could handle it (my pc is getting kind of outdated, getting a new one in a couple of months, pretty excited) and thanks to the extreme customization of the graphix, i can run it with around 80 fps, while it still looks good!
The stuff I like so far:
The graphics

The drifting

the cars

the environment

and the shitload of new driving platforms

The stuff I don't like / would like to see in the game:
The old cars. I know I put this as a good point, but it would be nice to have the option.

the painter really needs a way to only colour certain parts of the body, like tmnf had.

The handling seems kind of weird at first, but you get used to it pretty fast. Would like some quicker response for the keys though. Kind of feels like there is mouse smoothing for the keyboard at certain points. 

So, for the 20€, it's definatly worth it, if you are into driving games atleast. Go watch some youtube videos on it, It'll amaze you, probably.

I'll slap you in the face with some wallpapers tomorow!

-Rauwz <3